Rebirth

As a Pheonix, I wish to rise strong from my own ashes. Ashes which are the shadows that follow up everywhere I go, shadow that I am scared of but yet like hanging out with. There is a poetic sense of companionship with this Shadow of mine. As if I am afraid to leave it behind and move forward.

Lately I have noticed my reflections have become deeper and revolve around existential questions and this sense of walking on a never ending road without any end within visibility.

Still this picture depicts what I wish could happen. I wish the shadow which has accompanied me for all my life can help me go through this rebirth of sorts. Everyone has a shadow that follows them! While some embrace it with open arms , some try to run away from it for all their life. End result might be very different for each of this approach. Sometimes I wonder , do I even have an identity without this shadow of mine. Maybe I am just too close to it and hence can never get rid of it. Though maybe having a shadow to walk with is my answer for the loneliness I feel inside . Its as if something is missing eternally in this journey of mine , as if I have to spend this entire life feeling lonely.

Anyways I digressed from the topic of going through the transformation I need to go through. I have been accompanied by my shadow for 39 years, 0 months, 10 days, that's a long time to have it's company. I feel its time to burn this shadow and in the process let this fire make my life pure and peaceful. I want to be reborn like this majestic magnificent and magical creature. It symbolizes rebirth to me, shedding this life long companion and venturing on a new journey toward a life without the shadows of past, present and future . Place where I can be peaceful and assimilate my inner self with the spiritual energy source/. The energy that has always called me for this eternal journey of my life. Finally this journey of rebirth ends in peaceful transformation.